When I am running all I think about is what I should blog about when I'm done. I think about my inspirations, my motivation...basically everything. I could make 10 mini posts about all random things or just lump it all together in one....
I do my best thinking when I am in the shower, running and laying bed....maybe that's because that's the only time I get mostly to myself. The kids are usually in bed by that time and I can just think about life.
I've always wondered why I want to lose weight. Most people would say because they want to be healthy and life a long happy life. Well if I want to be honest with myself, it's because I want to look good. I want to buy cute clothes from my previously favourite stores again and feel good wearing them. That probably makes me sound shallow, which I assure you I am not. Who doesn't want to look good? So that was my main goal going into this, look great and have other people notice as well. Yesterday morning I ran on the treadmill, 6 miles, and while I was running Reegan was playing around me and watching Treehouse. He is such a sweet little boy, and I realized I am doing this for him and his little sister. They are amazing little kids and they deserve to have a great mom. Randy has wanted to take Reegan to the water slides for a while now, and I always so no, and the reason is because I didn't want to wear a bathing suit. Well not anymore! Too bad I came to this realization in the winter when they are closed! I do not want to deprive my kids of anything just because they have a lazy and embarassed mom. I am going to live my life to it's fullest and looking good is just a perk of that! So as sappy as it sounds, my family is my motivation. They give me that little push to keep running.
It feels good to get some of my thoughts out!
As far as my weight loss this week goes, it's not too great. I can come up with a thousand excuses, my monthly lady friend is visiting, halloween candy was around, I don't have a vehicle so I can't go to the grocery store....blah blah blah... Basically I lost sight of what is important, only for a short period, and I am back on track! My running is going really well and I'm looking forward to the 5k in a couple weeks. Also, I will starting some strength training soon, which will be nice too! I'm thinking I want to be at my goal weight by my birthday (February 12) and I think I chose 160lbs as my goal weight. That may change, but for now, that is the number I am shoooting for.